Conversations with a young 'nazi' Pt 3

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Well livin' in the country watchin' shadows fall

My reception ain't too good in a power stall

Bombers in the air, missiles in the sea

Chemicals in everything, including me

They don't keep their promise in the promised land It's getting mighty hard to find an honest man

But coming very soon, a show you'll die to see

It's called "The End Of The World", on channel "C"

This song reminds me of you, K said.

Such a banger.

He’s listened to every song by Don Mclean; he loves him. Some of his songs have made him cry.

how I picture the young nazi when he doesn’t put his camera on

I told him I used to repeatedly listen to American Pie when I was on the campaign trail with Bernie, driving from Cleveland to Milwaeky with my Field Director.

Awhh you are a little americanized; how cute

At one point, we were both Bernie bros.

How is it, I wonder out loud, that you cry listening to music, but then you go to your Walmart freezer and get into nazi stuff with your crypto bros?

K protests that I am dehumanising him again.

Crying is peak emotion for happiness, sadness or anger. You are used to men pretending or faking to impress you.

Since reading about my love of British men, he loves highlighting their weaknesses with every opportunity.

I wish I could make you cry

Why?

I just want to move you very badly.

To leave an impression.

Oh, but he has. He’s made it to the blog.

How many guys have I written about in this blog?

Let’s count them.

1. We started strong with the former drug dealing McKinsey consultant.

2. We followed up with the two high school nemesis toffs I was sandwiched in between at a black-tie dinner.

3. We moved on to the OG Englishman.

4. The Westminster hack whose sycophantic paws have left their mark all over.

5. There is a smidge of the NON-UK former cabinet minister who grabbed me by the neck like a kitten.

6. The vampiric socialist prince who frankly deserves a whole chapter in my memoir.

7. That one time I wrote smut about an Italian stallion and a local Greek boy.

8. The platonic nativist Brit.

9. The married nerd.

10. The Judas friend who waited 7 years to get into my pants.

11. The boy who confessed that when he was 13, I was his Mrs Robinson.

I am missing some, but truly, our little fascist Zoomer is standing on the shoulders of giants.

I think ragging on white men gets you way too excited.

I don’t think I rage on white men; if anything I’d say I am being far too indulgent of them and need to reign it in a bit.

Probably makes you feel like you are stealing their power and since women have been powerless it makes you high.

So, we agree. White men have too much power.

There are more slaves now than ever and colonization of Africa but liberals ignore it since Muslims and Chinese do it.

His racist rants are interfering with the idealisation process that is the pleasurable part of speaking to a boy online without ever having to face who they really are.

I am annoyed when he throws around libtard speaking points to reduce me to a caricature, even though I agree that non-Western nations’ slavery is a left-wing blindspot. The UK and the US are two of the least racist countries in the world, thems the facts.

That would explain your obsession with posh men and men who have achieved well in the field you want to pursue because you know without their help and advice, you’d be lost.

Why else would you say British and American men are your favorite? Maybe because they have ruled the world with political and economic power for centuries.You’ve said the Greek financial crash defined your family so not a big surprise you would be in love with the most stable places on earth.

From the mouth of babes, etc.

For the last couple of days, he has slipped into a combative mode of communication, the equivalent of an 8th grader pulling my pigtails.

I wonder how popular he is with his compatriots. He seems relatively social for someone who spends as much time as he does in front of a screen.

Just enough.

Men don’t need friends.

I am the burning bridge king.

Everyone needs friends.

Men need people who would die alongside them.

In conquest.

King larp.

He sounds just like the disaffected nativist British boys who rage under my GBnews clips on Twitter.

I switch the subject.

What do you usually eat?

I’m American it’s embarrassing

I had Nutella toast for breakfast lol, Ms dietitian.

Before I got back into crypto, I ate better. I used to be vegan.

Is that when your brain got fried?

Basically, I was anorexic.

I gained weight in the US so I am trying to lose that now, so I am starving myself at the moment.

Yeah, you look better with some more fat lol.

He likes to remind me I looked better when I was 25. I think it’s what the kids refer to as ‘negging’.

He is obsessed with me in my younger years. He sent me a photo of myself (photoshopped with the fascist-coded cartoon character from his Twitter profile in the place of a puppy) and told me I looked better then. The photo was from two years ago.

On the left, K; on the right, the woman he’ll betray his race for

How old were you when you first slept with a girl?

18 and it was one of my biggest life regrets.

A girl who loved me wanted it but I was so dumb.

She was so hot and still is and I made her go crazy idk why.

What do you mean?

I was basically like f u to the girl i was talking to I’ll just sleep w a random tinder girl..

Why did you do that??!? Was the other girl hurt?

Duh

Was sleeping with the Tinder girl worth it?

Hell no

How did she find out?

I told her haha

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Do you have a good relationship with your family?

I don’t know. They’re boomers.

(They’re not in fact, boomers— another time, he told me they are 45; that makes them Gen X )

Stupid MAGA Trumpers. I just think they’re dumb and childish, lol.

Even though you’re poor, you’re more high-class than my family, lol.

I’m not poor. I’m cash-restrained like everyone who works in clout professions in London. But I’m solidly middle-class.

Bruh, you own nothing and have student debt.

Channelling my inner Martin Lewis, I explain that student debt in the UK is more like a graduate tax—it doesn’t count as typical debt.

It would be hubris for me to call myself poor.

It’d feel like posturing as poor to enhance my left-wing credentials or connection to the working class.

Even though my family has "American money," you’re definitely from a higher social class.

You work at a Walmart freezer, chill.

Nice pun, i guess. I’m not rich duh but not a euro poor. Walmart slander is battle words.

I’m not being mean calling you poor but it’s true lol If anything i prefer the poor women.

He often underplays my ‘hard’ power (property, money) while acknowledging my evident ‘soft’ power (social position, education). He will say I am smart and educated but will insist on pointing out my unimpressive salary and freelance fees (there are starving attention seekers in Westminster who would kill for my media grift-shift slots, I’ll have you know !!1!!!).

My theory is that, in his eyes, this maintains my feminine, submissive place in our relationship dynamic. He will never socially climb above me but could make more money if he tried. He will often, for example, mention his family’s property or drop his holiday plans throughout conversations much like my London hinge dates will mention ‘having work done’ on their flat before our first drinks arrive.

I don’t think you are being mean but I am pretty solvent.

Why do you prefer poor women?

I’ve dealt with higher-class women—they want crazy gifts.

Were they OnlyFans girls? That’s not very high-class.

Hell no.

TBC

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